Cross-posted from my journal with a bit more commentary:
I'm back from the hospital again, second night in a row. My one level of something in my blood wasn't increased, so they didn't think it was an FMF attack. They put me on IV fluids and gave me 2 big doses of pain meds, which didn't help, then my whole body started locking up and hurting, so the doctor got me on another IV bag full of meds. I feel a bit better, I guess. He said that I have a viral infection. Blah. He was really nice, though. The nurse was kind of rude, she goes "You're in here *all the time*, it gets expensive ya know?" and my mom started crying telling her "Yeah, well most people don't realize that if this goes to her heart, she could die!" and the nurse didn't say anything. I was so sick at first that I couldn't even walk, and the triage nurse was rude, too, she said "Here, stand up, we're going to check your weight" and when I told her that I was weak (Duhr, why else would I have had to have been wheeled in in a wheelchair?), she goes "There are RAILS on the SIDES of the SCALE." I said "Yeah, well I don't want to fall" and I told her that I had weighed about 3 weeks ago, she goes "Are you POSITIVE??" I said "Yes".....they've never done that to me before and I've never seen her there before, either. I hope I don't see her again...ugh...fatphobes make me so mad, I think she was just doing it to try and make me feel ugly and/or gross for being fat, you wouldn't believe the stuff people in the medical field have said and done to me because of my weight, it's so stupid. Anyway, the doctor was GREAT, I really liked him, he went through my bloodwork results with me and everything.
What irritates me is that they don't know which fat people are fat because they eat too much, or if it's because of a medical problem. Regardless, I don't think that someone should be treated with less dignity and respect than anyone else because they're overweight, even if it is because they overeat. I consume less food than what most people do, and what I do eat couldn't be much healthier. I see it along the same lines as racism - discrimination against someone for their outer appearance. I always feel the need to tell medical personnel right off the bat that I'm a vegan so I don't have to hear "Well, your weight is a huge issue, maybe if you didn't eat so much blah blah blah".....it's like people feel like they have to tell me I'm fat....hello, you don't have to be THAT observant to notice that....it's like they think fat people are living in lala land, that we don't know we're obese. Like tonight, the one nurse that I know said "Your weight can't make you feel much better, either, have they considered a gastric bypass?" After I've already told her and others 100000 times that MY DOCTORS SAY THAT MY WEIGHT IS NOT CAUSED BY A DIETARY ISSUE. My doctors REFUSE to do stomach-stapling because I don't overeat. I don't consume waaaay too many calories. Gastric bypass would NOT fix the problem. It's like it's so hard for some people to believe that all fat people don't eat like hogs, it's frustrating.